Mind Chatter

Another change brought by the recent energy upgrade is that I am now keenly aware of my mind chatter. I have been training myself for years so I am really good at consciously thinking positive. And after 20 years of Buddhist meditation training, I thought I could control my mind and at least be aware of negative thoughts. But last week my subconscious thoughts sounded like a constant stream of complaints, criticisms and self defeating stories!

I was AMAZED at how many times a day I caught myself going off track and back into some kind of familiar but uncomfortable negative, complaining or critical stream of comments, to myself. Not the kind of things I would ever say or that I ever knew I was thinking until a few days ago.

So I kept doing the energy work to eliminate, transmute and replace all that old garbage. I felt lighter and more able to think clearly by the hour! Alleluia!

I am so grateful I spent the past 12 years consciously training to be an energy healer and learning to facilitate the attunement of the soul to increasingly high levels of consciousness! It is coming in very handy this year!

Tell me your story in a comment below!

Flow

There are people in this beautiful world of ours who only feel satisfied when they can control everyone around them. Even is that means destroying someone else's happiness or joy in order to gain control over them while they are sad, depressed, ill, miserable or feeling victimized. Because when the 'victim' are undermined and cannot do for themselves, they suddenly need support, right? So guess who is suddenly available to swoop in and help/support/rescue them? Yes: the 'destroyer' themselves.

My mother was one of those people whose low self esteem only allowed her to be happy when we were unhappy and needed her. So I learned at a VERY young age (definitely before I was 2) that it was DANGEROUS to be happy, to look free, to laugh, to express happiness in front of her because it would TRIGGER her anger and resentment and set her into destructive action. I learned that it was easier for me to repress creativity, flow and happiness rather than let it arise and watch her destroy it. THAT pain I could not take.

So I nearly died as an infant, by the time I was 2 I was scarily 'well behaved' and by the time I was 7 I was chronically depressive. My unconscious programming was set to 'no fun, no happiness, no flow, no creativity coz they're dangerous'. Wow! What a legacy!

I started therapy at 20, meditation at 27, developed awareness and over the years I allowed myself to be happy and joyful again. But I would still get STUCK on a regular basis. Physical pain. Lack of cash FLOW on a boringly regular basis. Stop-start artistic flow/inspiration: sometimes I could paint sometimes I didn't. Sometimes I was fun to be with and a lot of the time until recently I definitely was not.

I got over a lot of that in my 20s. Then in my 30s I had children and unconsciously associated having kids with 'being stuck', because that is how my mother felt about motherhood so it started all over again when I became a mother. That also started me on my journey as a conscious healer because I was determined to heal myself and change my children's legacy! I became a Reiki Master, a Kinesiologist, a Quantum Healer. I do energy work for myself and my family all day, every day! That is just how we live now. I know a lot about energy by now, I am an expert!

The word FLOW came to me in a meditation recently. The remedy was to take ACTION that encouraged flow in my life. It's working: this morning I was laughing out loud playing ball with the dog then dancing to Flamenco music!
My kids wish I could have been more fun when they were little. They have all articulated that wish to me. I was not and it's ok because for the most part I looked the other way when they were playing and having fun or doing arts so I would not interrupt their creative flow. It's worked and now they are older, THEY are teaching me how to be me, how to have fun and how to flow.

I feel like I am finally coming into balance and loving life all that much more! TOGETHER, we learn.

PS: Of course, on a soul level, I know I chose my family and created the experience to become the healer that I am now. But in THIS lifetime and in THIS body, I still had to understand and release the 'repressed joy' pattern to crawl away from under that rock and into the sunshine!

Cultivate Awareness to Discover Unconscious Beliefs

How do you discover what your unconscious beliefs are? Cultivate awareness!

Last Monday (This was written on Nov 25, 2009) I wrote about how what I am worth is created by my unconscious beliefs. So how do I discover what those unconscious beliefs are?

I want to share a rather personal example that came to light in my life only a few days ago because I believe it is rampant in our culture.

A friend of mine insisted for months that I hated men and that I needed to get over it fast. I found that really surprising because believe me when I tell you that I like and love men!

So I dug a little deeper. Nothing.
I muscle tested around the beliefs that I hated men, did not like them, etc. Nothing.

I decided to let it be and just watch myself ~ awareness, Baby! ~

I lay low like a cat pretending to sleep, waiting for the mouse to dash across the room. And all of a sudden, there it was: a very, very quick thought, barely formulated, censured as it was being born, because it runs contrary to what I WANT to believe and how I CHOOSE to live. I was watching TV. Some sad story of what humans can do to each other sometimes. And I heard myself think "Not surprising. Men are b*****ds" Woh, woh, woh, WOH! Hold on a minute! Where did THAT come from?

Quick flash of shame. Quick look around the room. Did anyone hear that thought? Pheeww! No one around. And it WAS a thought anyway!

Non-judgement, Sophie. Non-judgement! BREATHE.... Have the compassion you would have for one of your clients.
Ok, got that.

Back to the cat lying in wait. And there it is: in French, of course, I can hear my mother say the equivalent in French. I'll spare you the translation!

It is relevant to share with you that both her and I were raised by violent cruel men who often behaved not very nicely and were emotionally, verbally and physically abusive. It leaves a legacy that you understand if you've been there but I sincerely hope for you that you cannot quite imagine what I mean.

So I did NOT hate men, which would be a choice and a strong emotion. But underneath my conscious life choices I was taught to believe that the only explanation for the abuse women suffered in my family (and by extension the whole world) was that "men are b******ds". A little simplistic I know. But hey, most ideas are simple when you are an infant, a toddler, an 8 year old.
I have also remembered many lifetimes that compounded that belief.
I think I was probably born ready for that thought to be programmed in my neuro-net. So whenever a man did something I did not understand or that reminded me of past abuse in any way, that thought was triggered and ran its little routine, creating more trouble in my present.

Can you see how insidious and subtle those deeply embedded karmic or familial or cultural beliefs can be?

I removed that belief yesterday and I feel much lighter! Now I can align myself to my conscious truth which is that I like and love men!

When clients come to me in a session it's a lot easier to work with them than with myself because I can hear their thoughts, feel their emotions and their body's reactions OUTSIDE of me. So I know exactly what is going on and I can unearth their hidden negative beliefs on their behalf. But when we work on ourselves, AWARENESS is really the key. Until we feel that we are in alignment with Love, in our actions as well as emotions. Because Love is all our Soul truly wants.

PS:
This post was written on Nov 25 2009, just a couple of days after I cleared that negative family belief about men. At the time I did not have the courage to publish it because the story it tells felt so personal. Now I think it is important to share it with you because so many of us UNCONSCIOUSLY carry old familial beliefs.

How Do we Create What we Consciously Want?

"How do we create only what we consciously want?"

1. the very first thing is to find out what our soul purpose is because easy manifestation only happens when the specifics of what we wish to create in our everyday life is aligned to our general soul purpose/incarnation objective
   
2. we create a specific intention that is aligned to the core of our soul purpose
   
3. we find the blocks in our unconscious programming that prevent alignment between soul, emotions & intention
   
4. we remove them
5. sometimes we download a positive pattern we were lacking
   
6. we just watch life force flow where we used to be stuck

It's that simple: for the most part, we JUST REMOVE THE BLOCKS. We go to the Quantum Field where all creation is being created in the eternal present and decide to remove the block.

If what we desire IS aligned with our soul purpose, then the block to what we want is often an old idea:

• a feeling or emotion we absorbed from our parents/carers as infant 'sponges'
  
• something we were taught
• something we used to want
• a decision we made in the past that served us well then and it does not anymore.

Whatever it is, it is now obsolete and it stands in the ways of what we consciously want to create. We need to remove it to keep energy and love flowing.

Energy never disappear, it just is. So we don't make the block disappear as such: we transmute it. We change it into something else. We dissolve what is now perceived as negativity back into love so we can shape it again into something else. That is why the energy of St Germain and the Angels of the Violet Flame are so helpful in this process: St Germain was an alchemist and the violet ray is the energy of transmutation.

The quantum field is non-judgemental and infinitely malleable. In the quantum field your life is like putty in your hands, you can sculpt your brain and forever reshape your energy system. So the main question is not so much HOW do you change energy and thinking patterns? That is done through intention and I can easily teach you that in one of my workshops. The real questions are:

What blocks do YOU want to remove so your desires can blossom? What pain do YOU want to dissolve back into love today?

Seeing the Unseen

Today is definitely an intuition day, a day for seeing the unseen.

And because it is also Wednesday, and the 3rd of the month to boot, I will predict that it is also a great day for people and new ideas crossing your path.

Today if you pay attention you will be shown how your thinking shapes your life. So look out for details: be mindful of who pops up in your Twitter stream or on your FaceBook page. What mail you receive and what feedback people give you about your work.

When you allow your eyes to go out of focus, you start seeing inwards. All of a sudden underlying patterns softly emerge. Memories feel safe to come out of hiding. And as in a kaleidoscope of overlaid patterns and fragments of lights and colors, a completely new perception of life emerges. Images that your unconscious understands. In that state of out of focus images, you can gently release old unnecessary memories. And create a new pattern, a new picture, with a new focus.
Today is a great day to re-arrange quantum and create healing around a new intuition or new intention!
It is a great day to let go of old underlying thought patterns and to create a new focus. That is what I do every day as a Quantum Healer so trust me on that one and TRY IT!

What patterns are YOU noticing today? What new focus are YOU choosing for YOUR life today? Let me know in your comments!

Why Do I Still Need Healing?

We only need healing to correct physical disease or emotional and spiritual dis-ease, the disruption of being at ease. We need healing when something has gone wrong in this beautiful magical body of ours. The physical body or the emotional or mental body. There are so many layers!

Our body, with all its hormones, emotions and moods is the end product of our intention. Our body is the lower vibration of the loving light that we are at our core. In other words, what our soul and mind intend to be is reflected in and created in our layers of human body.

Ok, so if my intention is to have a good life, to be loved and loving and I think : "I want to be healthy" and "I love life" why do I still get headaches, skin rashes, allergies, depression, cancers or strokes?

That is because while some of what we manifest comes from our conscious mind, most of our reality is created by our unconscious programming: our early childhood experiences, our family karma, our DNA, our soul's incarnation purpose. These programs are automatic and run the show in the background. Most of the time we are not even aware of their presence.We are who we are and we take that for granted. Most of the time we don't even imagine that we could be different. "I was born that way" or "It runs in my family" or "You can 't go against your nature" we say to each other to justify the way we all suffer together. There is great camaraderie born out of suffering together. Have you noticed? Sometimes we even make better friends when we are sick than when people think we are strong. But that is the topic of another post!

Of course our conscious thoughts also have great power. Because we are all creators of our own life, whether we know it or not. We become even more powerful creators when we understand and use the Law of Attraction, affirmations, visualization, meditation, lucid dreaming, yoga and Qi-Gong to name a few. All the beautiful Eastern, Ancient and New Age techniques we have discovered, learned and practiced with devotion. We've been doing this for years! My personal favorites have been yoga, Tibetan Buddhist meditation, Tai Chi, Reiki, Seichim, Kinesiology, crystals, oils... You get the picture. How much we have learned, how much we all know! How hard we have all worked at our healing. Surely we deserve it by now and we do not need any more healing! Right?

So I'll ask again: why is it not happening? Why aren't we whole and healthy and creating joyfully? Yet?

In many cases we have learned just enough to manage. To make our lives comfortable. We have rounded the sharp edges, learned to get on with people. Or with ourselves. Our lives are much better than they used to be. I agree with you. They are. In some cases we have even healed ourselves form asthma or cancer. Or we made a fortune. But most of us are now in a push-pull situation where we attract health and repel it at at he same time and don't always earn enough. Where we want to lose weight but we still crave the rich foods. We attract a loving mate but we still display repulsive angry or jealous behavior. Or we have the money, the figure, the mate and we are still discontent or sad or lonely.

That is why we still need healing: to finish what we so eagerly started. We still need healing so we can dismantle the last, the hidden, the stubborn unconscious programming. We need 2.0 healing. We need magical, instant, easy healing. We need to heal in the quantum field where all we need is to change our intention to remove a block and to create joy and peace. In the past 10 years or so a number of extremely effective, instantaneous healing methods have appeared. I'll review them in another post.

So, do YOU think that you still need some healing? Some 2.0 healing straight from the Quantum Field maybe?
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